This song;

makes me have faith. I'm so in love with this song.

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I want magenta too

Now That I've Lost Everything To You

You can say that the past few days have been rough. It wasn't at all terrible. It was the kind of rough where you had to struggle a little to learn a life experiencing thing.
I’ve always said that a person changes because he/she chose to. I mean, how can we change if we don’t want to change? A friend doesn’t just evolve into a stranger all of a sudden. And a stranger doesn’t just evolve into a friend in a split second. I find it ridiculous. From experience, I can say that I’ve loose friends as we were just slipping apart due to the changes but I don’t think that I’ve ever gained a friend from changes. Do we all just change for the worse? Or am I just too stubborn to accept the fact that there’s a possibility that people change for the better.

While I was lying on my bed last night, thinking, it hit me that I was actually growing up. As in I’m not as childish as I used to be. I used to convey my feelings at that very moment without even thinking of the consequences. That was like one of my biggest flaw. It shocking as I never did thought I’d lose my childish attitude. I have always been what you can call, spoilt. I wasn’t a brat but I wasn’t a goody-two-shoe either. I never did believe that people do change. Even till today, I don’t really believe in it but looking at myself, I have to admit that we humans do change, for the better or worse, at least a little.

You're His Favourite Girl

I'm still excited over my Physics mark.

Before I start, a shout out to Nisa. Happy belated birthday. Sorry I wasn’t around on Friday. As you know, I was busy. I did look for you after school though, but you had already left. Next shout out is to the soon to be birthday girl in 58 minutes time. Happy Sweet Sixteen Hanna. Hope you’ll have a hell of a time. Tomorrow DeepaRaya celebration is going on so I’m pretty sure things will be great.

Moving on, Everybody’s Day celebration was horrible for me. Millions of mess up but heck it’s over. I doubt the audience had a clue of what I was saying. I wanted it to be all spontaneous but obviously the teachers didn’t like my idea. In fact, I don’t think they even liked any of our ideas. Anyway, it’s clearly my first and last attempt of being the emcee. Despite sucking like majorly, at least it was sort of a good experience I guess.
After school, had lunch with mates at great old McDonalds. Everything was superb until they turned up but I left not too long after they did so like whateffs. Anyhow, we should have luncheons together way more often. Random and simple, yet fulfilling.

Oh, I’ve got big news. She’s finally getting married. Like OMG! Even though I didn’t get to hear it first hand, but I’m still amongst the many few to know first. Take that, bitches!

Wish Upon A Star

Special thanks for the wishes. Very much appreciated.

Firstly, finals are effing over. Except for Accounts which is postponed till Wednesday but hey, who's complaining? Plus, I don't really give a ratshit about it because it's not like I'll get the look and tone from the subject teacher as I don’t have one. Chemistry was yesterday. It was the last and most crucial subject. But since it was my sweet sixteenth, I couldn’t give a shit. My plan for ‘my day’ was to sit for both papers, get back home and sleep. Things didn’t go as planned though. But once again, I’m not complaining.

Secondly, turning sixteen wasn’t so bad after all. I was sort of paranoid that I was turning a year older. I mean, when I was young, I never knew why women took 5 years off their actual age when informing people but as I was starring at the clock, watching it tick second by second, I started realizing that I was really getting older as every second goes by. Even now, I’m getting older by a second or two. The worst part of it all is that my time of on Earth is decreasing. Yes, it is all brought back to DEATH.

Thirdly, apart from Chemistry being tremendously horrible and sort of ruining my day, all the wishes managed to brighten things up. Not to mention the presents. For that, another gratitude wish from me to everyone.

Fourthly, I finally understand why they called it Sweet Sixteen.

Last but not least,

and coincidence much?

Things One Should Do On The Third Day of Raya

1. Wake up in the state of shock yet blurry.
2. Help your mum with her just cut finger.
3. Go to the kitchen to finish up what she was doing. Soon you'll be sitting on the floor because you're feeling a little dizzy.
4. Go to the washroom to answer nature's call.
5. Walk towards the living room to inform your parents about the dizziness feeling you're having but..

before you can reach them, you realize you're already on the floor and

the next minute you're on the sofa sitting with a major sickening feeling. You are then sent to the clinic to have a check-up and also to ensure that your mum's cut is nothing serious.

At the clinic, you find out that you've got low blood pressure. And it's cool because it was the first time you've fainted, EVER. Plus you've got low blood pressure. How cool is that?

I know I seem very much insane but hey, why deprive a girl of her happiness. Before I go, Happy Birthday Baby Boy.

it's weird how we only have like 5 photos together even though we've known each other for a year or so?

I am a sucker for happily ever afters

and I think it's because I've watched WAY too many romantic shows.

there are days that i miss him, but i know that he's there.
there are days when i can feel him,his breath, keeping me
warm.
there are days when i can feel his strength, telling me that i can be
so much more,
then there are days when i dont think about him, and those are the
easiest, calmest day of all

When I'm done watching the rest, I shall move on to movies I've missed

While majority are out visiting, I stayed home and feast on tv series. And I must say, life never felt this good.

Ghost Season 1, Ghost Season 2, Road Trip USA, Cupid, Gossip Girl, Prison Break

Just When I Thought

I was the only one who was thinking about you that night.

Tonight, we went to one of your usual ‘Bak Kut Teh’ restaurant for
dinner. As I set there eating, I couldn’t help but think back about the time
you
first brought us there. You walked in and the waitress went to take your
order,
and you replied by asking her ‘what she thinks your usual order is’
(in
Chinese), which gave her a shock, where she then went and asked the
manager.
Such cheekiness. It never left you, even till the day you went to
join Him.

You are perhaps the only grandfather that I’ve ever known;
because
the other had left when I was far too young to remember anything,
and yet I have
time and time again failed to show any patience for your
needs when you were
around. I do confess that at times, I get all so annoyed
when I have to run
errands for you, especially when I am busy with my life.
Perhaps it’s because we
were never really close, not until you came to live
in KL, which ironically was
during my high school days, when being an
arrogant teen and living life to the
extreme was part and parcel of my life.
Yet, you never seemed to mind or get
upset with me. I guess what I admire
most of you is that you never ever seek
anyone’s help even if you are
desperately in need of it. Even when you were in
pain you kept it a secret
from all of us, because you didn’t want to trouble us.

It’s been more
than a year now since you left us. When you did, I
promised to always do
well in my exams and to make you proud. Again I have
disappointed you, and
even in the most recent one. I hope third time’s the charm
because I’ve been
a disappointment for far too long.

Tonight, I thought of you, enjoying
one of you favourite delicacy.
We do miss you dearly. I hope you’ve been
thinking of us too.

I don't remember promising you anything. In fact, I don't even remember saying anything meaningful during your very last hours. I just stood by your bedside and hold your wrinkled hand. Even after you were gone, I didn't really say or feel anything. I tried hard not to feel anything. I chose to repel every single feeling. I kept thinking to myself that you just went for a vacation and that you'll be back soon. It didn't really hit me badly until I last 'talked' to you which was around December. In one way, it gave me hope as I knew that I could still talk to you somehow or another. But on the other hand, it was devastating to finally accept that you were really gone. It is clear that I was being denial. Even now, at times I still am.

we'll grow old together as you're

my pillow, my best friend.

I found a treasure when I found you

Well, it's been September for 10 days and it already sucks. Okay, it actually only took eight days to suck. I'll graduate my rempit course on Monday. Kinda psych about it. The only part I'm starting to get worried about is getting injured. I mean, I can't even ride a bike, what more a motorbike. Wish my luck.